“I Want to Please God, But I Keep Falling—Here’s What I’m Learning”

🛑 First: You’re Not Alone & You’re Not Too Far Gone

If you’ve ever said:

“Why do I keep failing?”
“Why can’t I stop this sin?”
“Why is it so hard to hear God?”

Then you’re not broken—you’re human. And more than that…
You’re being pursued by a God who sees your war and still waits at your door.

⚔️ You’re in a Spiritual Battle—But You’re Not Defeated

You were raised in chaos—abuse, yelling, trauma, confusion. That wasn’t your choice.
But now, the pain has been planted in your house, in your habits, even in your head.

And what you’re feeling?
That unequally yoked heaviness, the sin cycles, the confusion, the bar scenes you hate being in…
It’s not just bad decisions.
It’s spiritual warfare. And it’s real.

But the good news? Yahuah gave you the authority to fight it.

Let me show you how to begin.

🌿 How to Start Fixing the Spiritual Atmosphere in Your Home

1. Repent with Raw Honesty

You don’t need poetic words. Just give God the truth.

Say something like:

“Yahuah, I’ve opened doors to things You never gave me.
I’ve repeated sins I hate. I’ve let my house fall into confusion.
I repent. I don’t even know if I’m doing this right, but I want You.
I give You my home, my heart, my habits—please help me rebuild.”

Say it out loud. Hell needs to hear you choose heaven.

2. Anoint & Cleanse Your Space

Get olive oil, pray over it (ask God to sanctify it).
Walk through your home and say:“I cover this home in the name of Yahusha. Every dark spirit, every curse, every leftover energy from my past—go. You are not welcome here.”

Don’t just clean the house—clean the atmosphere.

3. Fast + Shut the Door on Old Cycles

Pick 1 day a week to fast (no food or social media for a few hours).

Use that time to:

Pray
Read Psalms out loud (Psalm 51, Psalm 27, Psalm 91)
Ask Yahuah to close every door you didn’t realize you opened

🧠 What About the Sin You Keep Repeating?

Let’s be honest: Sin feels good—for a second. But then it destroys your peace.
When you’re unequally yoked or your house is out of order, that sin isn’t just personal—it’s invited by the environment.

What to do:

Interrupt the pattern. Next time the urge comes, stand up, walk outside, breathe, and speak Scripture out loud.
Speak this:“I belong to Yahuah. I reject this temptation. I will not grieve the Spirit. Strengthen me, Father.”

And when you fall? Get back up.
Repent immediately. Don’t hide. Don’t delay. Don’t shame yourself.

💔 Why You Struggle to Hear God

Because noise, shame, sin, and trauma cloud the frequency.
But He is speaking. He’s probably whispering right now.

How to hear Him:

Get quiet—early in the morning or at night
Ask: “Yahuah, speak to me. I’m listening.”
Wait.
Write what you feel. Even one word. He often speaks through a whisper, a memory, a phrase.

😞 What About Feeling Unworthy? Not Sincere Enough?

Listen: You’re not saved by performance. You’re saved by surrender.
God knows your heart is torn—but the fact that you’re crying out right now?
That is sincerity.

“A broken and contrite heart, O God, You will not despise.” — Psalm 51:17

😔 What About the Bar Scene? The Social Anxiety?

That anxiety is your spirit saying:

“This is not where I belong.”

It’s not weakness. It’s discernment.
Start saying no. One invite at a time. Replace those nights with:

Worship music + tea
Journaling
Creating something for your blog or YouTube

You don’t need a big crowd to be powerful.
You just need God’s presence and your obedience.

💡 You Want to Please God—So Here’s What to Do Next:

Start with this prayer:

“Yahuah, touch my heart.
Make me feel again. Help me believe again.
Heal the little girl in me who was cursed, abused, and forgotten.
And show me how to walk in the calling You gave me—because I want to help others find You through my healing.”

Then… do one thing every day that aligns with who you want to be in Him.
Not who you were.

🕊️ You’re Not Failing—You’re Fighting

And the fact that you’re tired, hurting, and still asking for Him?
That’s proof the Spirit hasn’t left you.

You’re in the middle of the battle. Not the end of the story.

You are not crazy.
You are not too far gone.
You are God’s daughter—and He’s not letting go.🩷🩷🩷